Sunday, May 31, 2015

Accepting doubt

I have pretty well settled into my job at this point.  It's been almost 6 months and I have established myself and become a part of the daily operations of a non-profit medical clinic.  Despite that I still have moments of doubt.  Too many years of working with people that in the long run were only out for themselves.  I realize I have become very critical of people but at the same time I still have a great desire to help others.  It is that desire that gets me going each morning and keeps me looking for the good in people all day at work.  I am in a great mood most of the time because I realize that everything can go haywire in a hurry.  

I have had life changing moments that have had a long lingering effect on me.  I accept that as part of my life.  By trying to remain upbeat and happy the more serious times are easier to handle.  I try to save my deep thinking times for home, usually at night after my daughter has gone to bed.  It's a good way for me to clear my head, rest and be ready for a new day.  As I sit here writing this I am already feeling better about things.  My doubting moments will always be there but I know I have the ability to get past them.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

New job

I started a new job in Dec 2014 after 8 months out of work.  I learned a lot about humility and stress during those 8 months.  There were many tears and nights of restless sleep as I wondered if I would find a job again.  5 interviews in 8 months is all I had, despite putting out well over 100 applications.  That really took a toll on my self esteem.  Thankfully I had friends to help keep my spirits up and other activities to keep me busy.  

The new job ended up being Security again but unlike anything I have ever worked before.  I work for a Non Profit Medical Clinic 3 blocks from home.  The atmosphere there is like nothing I have have ever experienced.  A wonderful group of people that want to be there every day.  I am learning about other cultures on a regular basis and making what I hope will be good friends with co-workers.  Paid holidays and PTO are great benefits also, which I have not had before anywhere.  Looking forward to learning much more as I progress in this this job.