I wonder if things will ever get calmed down in my life sometimes.
In 2016 I dealt with my father being diagnosed with Dementia and his wife placing him in a nursing home. Lique and I were able to go over at Easter and see him. That wasn't easy as anyone who has dealt with this knows. His attention span and ability to stay awake and sitting up are both very short. Over three days we spent less than 30 minutes with him. My father is a veteran and my personal hero. To see him alone and sad was very painful for us. We'll try to go over again soon to see him and spend what little time we can with him.
Finances and car issues hit in 2016. I did receive some help from a close friend in dealing with these. I was grateful and humbled by this unexpected generosity. As grateful as I was to get help I still struggle get back to the place in life where I am comfortable financially. This is where a single parent really understands the meaning of sacrifice. I sometimes feel as if my kids don't get all they deserve. Trying to right that in my mind is not easy. I pray for guidance and wisdom on a regular basis.
I start 2017 as I ended 2016. Struggling, hopeful and praying. I have been on my current job for 2 years now and that has been a big part of keeping my self esteem up. I have been blessed with finding a job that allows me to work independently and spend my time & effort taking care of of other folks. I hope for many more years working with the great people around me.
Whatever happens this year I know things will be good and things will be bad. I will be okay, then I won't be okay then I will be okay again. I accept that because I know that's life and it ain't always easy.
